To Beck and Never Back

I'm ashamed to admit it now, but I was once a huge Glenn Beck fan.🤬
In all fairness, I did learn a lot about history from him. I learned about government, Soros and the "Deep State" before it was ever called that. I learned most of this in his books and on his infamous blackboard.

Hey, I wasn't alone. There were a lot of us standing "shoulder-to-shoulder" with him, the Tea Party and the 9/12 movement. (I can't believe I'm admitting it on FB). He was laughed at when he said ISIS was planning a caliphate. He was first to say that - and was laughed at. (He turned out to be right).

But Beck turned out to be such a hypocrite. After telling his fans not to do as he said, to not follow him, to "do your own research" for years, he turned on his Trump-supporting listeners. He lost his mind. He said Trump supporters were like Brown Shirts, they were ALL violent. I turned Beck off and I will never listen to him again. I defended his craziness so many times for years.

He even said he'd vote for Hillary before Trump. I turned Beck off and I never listened to him again. I don't care if he starts wearing a MAGA hat and campaigns for Trump. 
Beck really came unglued when he went on the road to campaign for Ted Cruz.
Twice he was investigated by the Secret Service for something dangerous he said. And when Cruz finally endorsed Trump, Glenn Beck had a complete meltdown on air. I saw a clip of it because I'd stopped watching him long before.
He kicked a trash can and attacked the one he said was "anointed by God" to be president - Ted Cruz.
Why do I bring this up?
Some Trump supporters compare Mark Levin to Glenn Beck. I admit, another conservative, radio host was alienating his listeners - Mark Levin. It got to wear I couldn't listen to Levin either! I learned a lot of what I knew from these two men.
How did they get Trump so wrong?
True, Levin did say a lot of things that turned Trump supporters away from listening to him. At one point, he even declared himself a "Never-Trumper", but that didn't last long.
At least Levin said he'd vote for Donald Trump - even if his reason was solely based on Trump's list of SCOTUS justice nominees. I was disappointed by Levin too. Levin was so blinded by his belief of who Ted Cruz pretended to be, he didn't see Cruz had no chance of winning. I was sick to death of both Beck and Levin preaching about their ethics. What good were those ethics if they ensured Hillary Clinton a win?
Did they want to win or did they want to hand the presidency to Hillary Clinton?
First off, Cruz has zero charisma. I really liked Ted Cruz - as a senator. We needed ninety-nine more just like him there. Like it or not, charisma plays a huge role in winning the presidency. Too many Americans base their reason for voting on charisma alone. I'd bet half do!
Secondly, I was starting to see flaws in Cruz's
 

I bring this up because I was (and still am) a Mark Levin fan.

Levin was starting to head down the same road as Beck. I just joined LevinTV, couldn't cancel my membership and couldn't listen to him anymore either.

Some Things will Change Your Life Forever

This blog has always been about politics. I haven't kept up on it the way I should have. I am a conservative. So the mass media has not been reporting the truth.
I could scream and write about all of that - how it's angered me. It's left me disillusioned and shocked by the establishment government.
I don't care what people say. I've seen proof that the government became corrupt - beyond our wildest dreams under the Obama administration. Democrats will laugh, call me a conspiracy theorist. Where is their proof? Something happened to me shortly after Valentines Day, 2019. It changed my whole life. I'm still interested in politics.
My husband died unexpectedly on 2/23/2019. I found him laying on his stomach.
I saw him lying like that so many times before. I didn't know then, but it apparently always scared me. He was always difficult to wake up. Every time I hysterically woke him, I didn't know I was rehearsing for this day...this horrible day when my whole world would turn upside down.
My husband was eight years younger than I. Rob was only 49. He may have been a hard sleeper, but I never really believed he would go before I would. There are some things you cannot un-see. I will never forget. That scene will forever play over and over in my head. I cannot erase it from my memory.
I shook him. I tried so hard †o wake him. I even pulled his hair. He was gone. Every worst nightmare I might have buried in my subconscious was right there.
The paramedics told me he had a massive heart attack. They said there was nothing I could have done to save him. It doesn't matter what they said. I still keep blaming myself. What if I had gone to wake him sooner?  Even two of the paramedics had tears in their eyes. I don't know if it was the sight of my husband or my reaction. I cannot explain the pain I felt. It was as if my heart was ripped from my chest. I felt alone. I felt so alone.
It's two months later and I still feel so alone. In the span of five years, I lost my whole immediate family. My mom passed away in 2013. My brother succumbed to pancreatic cancer in 2015. I was my father's  caregiver when he died in 2018. My mother-in-law went into a diabetic coma in 2019. She died three days before my husband.
I have grieved my entire family. I am still grieving them. However, nothing compares to losing your spouse. Even if things weren't wonderful and and perfect, he was my husband.